WHAT LIES BENEATH - "A ROAR IN THE WIND."

by blackthelion

ALL MY LIFE  THERE'S BEEN THIS EPISODE WHERE I'VE HAD TO BATTLE WITH DEPRESSION WITHOUT ANY MEDICATION AND AT TIMES I FEEL LIKE IT'S GETTING BIGGER. LIKE IT'S GROWING BEYOND MY CONTROL. THINGS I USE TO LIKE TO DO I HATE TO DO! MY ATTENTION SPAN IS SHORTER AND I FIND IT HARDER TO BE PRESENT WHEN SOME PEOPLE ARE CONVERSATING WITH ME. THE ONLY REASON  WHY I NEVER WANTED TO ACCEPT THE DRUGS WAS BECAUSE OF THE SIDE AFFECTS. I MEAN I WONT BE DEPRESSED BUT I COULD POSSIBLY HAVE BRAIN HEMORHAGES ETC. SO IN THIS CAGE I'VE TRIED SMOKING WEED IN ORDER TO CALM MY MIND AND NOT LET CERTAIN FEELINGS PUSH ME INTO THAT PLACE. IT WORKED FOR AWHILE BUT THEN I NEEDED MORE. I WANTED TO FEEL LOOSE AND FREE AND WILD LIKE THAT PERSON